Happy birthday not happy anymore !

From funky anklets and bangles to messy buns and lowers. From being the most notorious kid of the family to becoming the most serious one. From being the most polite one to becoming the most satirical , rude and loud one at times. From being the most sensitive one , to becoming the most strongest one. From being a pampered daughter , to becoming a responsible daughter. And this was my journey so far. 

The last one year of my life was like that I was on a rollercoaster ride and that too without a seatbelt on. It was the worst yet the most important years of my life. 
I fall ,

I rose ,

I walked ,

I fell again ,

And then again I started to walk.

…. This journey never seems to end. Yes pain changes us , and I am glad that it changed me to what I am today , a better person and moreover I now know who is actually worth keeping in  life.
But the most important thing that I learned this year was , ” never expect anything from anyone ” , even if it is your own cousins , your own relatives , your own friends , they will all leave you struggling alone. One has to fight their own battles ALONE ! 
Although I never needed anyone but seeing everyone changing their colors is really heartbreaking !
On this 21st birthday of mine , as I look back I remember the time when I was scared , shattered and what not , but now I am standing strong to face any challenge that life brings in. 
But I know things will never get back to what it used to be. My birthday will never be the same that it used to be. That void in my life can never be filled. My Happy Birthday not happy anymore .😊
I miss you mother 😍